"time won't let me go."

YAY for huge collaboration of random stuff on a blog post! Well, if you're in to that kinda' stuff... If not, you might want to check back at a later time, because that's all this blog is.

I really need to stop focusing on the future so much. I hate high school, I'm ready for college. If you've kept up with my blog at all you know that by now. I wish I could truly just enjoy what I have without always being so negative. I have a great mom and dad who do everything in their will to make life easier for my brother, my sister, and myself even if it doesn't seem so. I have amazing friends who I've created lifelong memories with. I can thank so many people for so many things and I never do. Sad. I know. I realized today just how much I love people. The people I'm around can make or break my day. Friday, I saw Tripp and every negative thought I had about the day just seemed to disappear. It's a pretty great feeling. Last Night, I spent some quality time with Toby and Clay. I love those kids. Somehow God had a plan for me to surrounded by amazing people and I greatly appreciate that. I love change, even if it at first seems bad it always seems to work out. I.E.- Emma Claire Bradley, I cried and cried and cried thinking about having a little sister. Life was already so hard and the last thing we needed was the physical, mental, emotional expenses of a baby. 4 years later and I'm in love with that little girl more then words can explain. She's teaching me more then I could ever teach her.

I was on Facebook a little earlier and I saw a Facebook status via Darius. It said, "t's always interesting to see how people respond to adversity, being clowned, and being gave up on.. How did LE's football team respond? Winning 3 of their last 4 football games, and being one win away from a region championship.. Only thing left to say after that, is BOOM." Hahaha, I got a pretty good laugh from it at first. Then I realized how true it was. I love football (another obvious fact) and I honestly had no faith in the Demons this year. Ten weeks into the season and we have a chance to come out region champs in 4A as a first year 4A team... Say what?! This comparison might seem a little vague to some, but in my opinion Lugoff reminds me of USC. Never underestimate any team- Carolina Basketball beat Kentucky and we thought it was luck. Carolina Baseball wins the College World Series and we thought the world stopped spinning. Carolina beat Alabama and ever since then College football has just been one big upset after another. Well, Lugoff-Elgin Wrestling won a State Championship. We thought we just had a good group of boys that one year. Lugoff-Elgin Baseball wins a State Championship and we thought we finally got that respect we deserved. Now Lugoff-Elgin Football has an amazing chance of becoming Region Champs as a 'rookie 4A school.' I guess you can say 2010 has been quite the year!

I told you all of the would be super random, but that's the kind of person I am. I guess writing all of this got my mind of some stuff, and I think it helped quite a bit.

"I wish consistency, certainty, and promises came with a warranty."

Ten Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1. Do I have any homework?

2. What are my plans like for today?

3. What time is it?

4. Let me check my phone.

5. Tripp, [:

6. The past.

7. I need music.

PS- If you believe in the power of prayer like you should; pray for the Ham's- Mr. Ricky, Mrs. Darlene, Katie, and Courtney. Pray for Crystal and her safety.

Beautiful Disaster - Jon McLaughlin

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home

"punch him again, punch him again!"

hahahahah, I LOVE IT.

I witnessed a dirtyyyyy football game this morning, like gosh- I don't even know how to put it into words. My family, the Evans, the Lynchs, the Dortons, gosh. I love it. They lost, but oh man. Whaaaatta' game. I'm proud of my little brother.

ANYWAYS, haa. Lindsey spent the night. I don't even remember half of my conversation with Tripp. Lugoff did SO good last night. I'm still a proud demon! My brother did good this morning. Lindsey wants to come to every game, haa. Then Hunter got there, that's always fun! Now my boys are playing and the vols just scored. I'm not worried though... yet. I have NO clue what I'm doing tonight/tomorrow. I reallllly want to go to a haunted house. I might go spend quality time with Clay, but who knows.

HEY- Carolina won, Clemson lost. I could go into specifics, but i'm not.

Man, an Auburn upset would make this weekend complete!

I'll add more tonight, I want plaaaans....

Ten Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Be honest with me.

2. Do the little things.

3 Make me feel safe.

4. Get along with my family; gain their trust.

5. Good morning texts are the bestttttt, period.

6. Hug me, hug me, hug me.

7. Remember the important things.

8. Be the same person around everyone.

"Sometimes you meet somebody,

And you know that whatever you did before,

It must have been right...

Because nothing you've done could be too bad,

Or have gone too far wrong,

Because it led you to this person."

"millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe that tiny instant of all eternity when you put your arms around me"

Today was a pretty alright day. It went by fast, thank god. Then after school I just got in an amazing mood. hmm, (: Now, I'm home. Football game tonight, babysitting and Carolina football tomorrow. I don't have a whole lot of change.
I love this. <3

Ten Day Challenge.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1- I hate feet, ew.

2- Yearbook is my favorite class, by far.

3- My 4-year-old sister is my favorite person in the world.

5- My dog has cancer and that's really upsetting, I try not to think about it.

6- I love clothes, I love shoes, I love shopping.

7- I cannot wait to go to college!

8- I'm so so so so happy with the people in my life.

9- I can get really emotional, but then again I can keep to myself and be emotionless. It's weird.

PS- I really love Lindsey Marshall right now.

-tonight was perfect.

I love demon football!

Good job boys!

"So step back for a moment to analyze all that you've achieved and tell me is it what you wanted?"

Yay for music!

Ten Day Challenge.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.


Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

(i'm going to keep these short.)

1- You are incredible, it's not possible to have a bad day when I get to see you like 5 times a day. People will probably see this and laugh at the thought of me and this person, but oh well. We've got a pretty good thing going, and you're becoming more important then words can say. I'm done listening to people talk.

2- You're too young to even read, but one day you'll understand just how much I love you. You're my little sister, but I feel like I've been watching my own child grow up for the past four years. You'll be beautiful, and smart. You'll be an all around better person then me and John put together. I won't be around much after I graduate, but you'll be a major reason why I come back when I do. I love you.

3- I'm currently texting you saying how much I miss you, and i do! Softball brought us together, and it kept us together. We mesh so well together, and you're like a fourth child in my family. I love you and miss you!

4- You're my best friend, I love you. enough said.

5- You're pretty much a best friend, we get along perfectly. We're married on Facebook, haa. We've been through a lot of the same stuff, and you've listened to my stories and given me the best advice. thank you, i love youuuu.

6- You're the only guy that I think I can fully trust. You've helped me so much and vice versa. You're a good guy and some day a girl will finally be smart enough to realize that.

7- You were everything to me. what the hell was i thinking..?

8- I was the first person to ever ride in a car with you when you got your license. We can normally agree on everything unless it's college football, hahaha. You're such a great friend, I don't know what I'd do without you honestly. You're pretty much a best friend, but I feel like I've told everyone that. I hate seeing you hurt though, you're too pretty and don't deserve that.

9- You're a new kid, and you freak me out. ..just saying. please stop watching me 24/7.

10- We should just be called sisters, you aggravate the shit out of me some times, but Ilove you. we've done everything you can imagine together. I LOVE your family, I seriously doubt there's someone I haven't met. I love you- kid.

10 people, done!

This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You’re so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me,
You’ll have to follow through
With every word you say .
-Gavin Degraw

"i whip my hair back and fourth."

Haa- this song reminds me of art today. I would not survive that class with Joey, John, and Kayla.
Today was pretty grande, Mrs. Horton has a full on laugh attack today during second block. That was precious. In yearbook I literally did NOTHING. I sat their with Anna and watched her look through pictures for the senior baby ads. pahahahah! All of the 'athletes' got out for some sports thing today during SSR, so yeah- that was boring, but better then sitting through SSR for twenty minutes. My quote is probably going to be longer then my blog today, which is bad. haa, but still- I think I'm going to the middle school football game, scooooore! ..sike. I did get a babysitting job this week for Josh Brown- the former kicker for Carolina and his wife (current assi. principal at svhs) they have a 3 year old and and baby-baby. I'm pretty excited! ..baaaaaank! haa


"You know, the right guy won't change you. He won't subtly pressure you. He won't tell you who you can and can't talk to about the two of you. He won't hide the fact that you're hanging out. He's not gonna tell you you're wrong for feeling... for being a girl. The right guy will show you off to... his friends. He'll take it as slow as you want. He'll only go as far as you're comfortable with. He'll take you out to places, even if it's just a fast food place or the store. He'll actually sit through your stupid girly Disney movies with you because he wants to watch them with you. The right guy will come along someday, you just gotta tough it out and wait for him. But whatever you do, don't settle. You deserve so much more."

"I'm coming up only to hold you under."

So today was really, weird. It was good, up until yeah- after school. It's not that it got bad; it just got- complicated... Then I go to my brother's football game and it was like living through this Summer all over again. I miss softball, I miss good- competitive volleyball. I miss the consistancy. Everything is good again now, go figure, but still. Blah- This blog makes me sound like I have the education of an 8-year-old, but I just really can't find something worthy of today to blog about.

On the up side- I was in the girls bathroom today by the 400 hallway and there was a post-it note in there that said, "girl- you foxy" pahahahah, gotta' love it.

I just want things to fall into place, is that SO much to ask?!

"speak now."

So, I'm pretty excited about Taylor Swift's new cd coming out, mostly because I know I'll get a lot of good headlines for blogs, haa.

Today was Monday, a gloomy one at that. ..But I enjoyed it, I got to see all the important people and that's what matters most. <33
It's SO weird not having practice, but I like it. I'm able to focus on school which is good that's something I need to do. I finaaaaally got my report card. It looks like God answered my prayers afterall- thank you. After school was kind of crazy, a little bit of something happened, but I'm not going to worry about it. I now have NINE whole followers, hahaha. It only says seven on my profile because apparently two are anonymous, that's cool though.

- It's been five years to the day since Rachel Gilbson died of Breast Cancer. That seems so impossible to believe My Mom and Mrs. Rachel became pretty close, and I loved Kayla like a sister. I remember always seeing her pictures in The Chronicle and thinking how cool it would be to be a photographer. A lot has changed since that day, but it's still so important and I can still tell you exactly where I was when I heard and just how sad the funeral and visitation was. ...Everything happens for a reason though. <3

I might add more tonight, I guess we'll see.

Random things.

Everyone else started their blogs with huge biographies about who they are and i guess i just never got around to it.
So here's a whole bunch of random facts about me.

1. I'm fifteen and my birthday is in 21 days! (November 14th)
2. I really don't understand why people think your high school years are the best years ever.
3. I'm probably one the biggest Carolina fans around. I'm an emotional wreck during games of any sport.
4. Softball was the first love of my life, and I think I'm about to give it up all together. The thought of that kills me.
5. Volleyball has always been my escape from everything dramatic and stressful. This past school year though really sucked and it made me want to quit altogether. That's easier said then done and now I'm stuck trying to find a decent club to play travel for.
6. I don't wear t-shirts, unless I'm seriously bummin' it out.
7. I take a lot of things way too serious.
8. I love dressing up.
9. I over charge my phone.
10. I have a sister who is 12 years younger then me and she is the most important thing in the world to me, I love her more then words itself. She's my reason for a lot of decisions.
11. I fight with my parents a lot, but we always make up.
12. I love make-up, hahaha.
13. I love the SEC, it's the best. hands down.
14. Screw the ACC.
15. I don't like Nick Saban.
16. I WILL MARRY TIM TEBOW! <3
17. I listen to rap, country, alternative, pop... It's whatever my mood is at the time.
18. I love purses, $$$$$$$
19. free waaaayne!
20. On June 5, 2009- my life completely changed. I spent 14 months in an on and off again relationship with someone I really shouldn't have. I've learned so much, and even though the problem isn't completley resolved. I feel like such an idiot for believing in that as much as I did. I missed out on so much because I was in waaaay over my head.
21. On that note, I can finally say I've moved on and am completely happy with who I've found now. Yeah, drama has been involved, but something is keeping me going.
22. I'm a designer on of the state's best yearbook staffs and as stressful as it is. i love it!
23. I want to go to either USC or a small school like PC, or Furman.
24. I don't drink sodas, unless that's the only option.
25. I don't drink gatorade.
26. I don't really eat candy.
27. I love art, I just wish it was easy.
28. I have mild scoliosis, and I know that's not a big deal to some. ..but there are nights I have to cry myself to sleep, and trying to sleep in a back brace is zero fun.
29. I don't have ONE best friend. I hate labels.
30. My purse is a bottomless pit, I have food, mints, hairbows, midol, EVERYTHING.
31. I dye my hair, a lot.
32. I love water.
33. I wish I was skinny(er).
34. My favorite number is 8, forever and ever.
35. I hate feet, my toenails are always painted.
36. I always wear some type of jewelry.
37. I've been raised Catholic, but I want to become Baptist.
38. Some how I'm related to Queen Elizabeth.
39. I'm Irish; Colleen means Irish girl.
40. People think I'm spoiled and get everything... Boy are they wrong.


^^This is PLENTY!

"Just close your eyes and keep your mind wide open."

SO let me start off with, last night.. it was great! hands down. I needed a night like that, so bad. I got home and watched 'Bridge to Terabithia!' Then I slept like a baby when I got home and woke up with the worst headache ever. ..But still, good job Jessica and Whitley! hahahah

I don't have anything to do today, I don't think. I've already watched 'Bridge to Terabithia' again, gosh I love that movie! I'll probably end up cleaning my room, getting stuff ready for the week, and working on this art project. I'm pretty upset I missed USC's win last night, but from what I hear it was ugly. I hope this week brings GOOD change. (;

I might add some more later, who knows.

PS- Happy Birthday Daddy! <3

"never long for anyone from your past, there is a reason why they never made it to your future."

That quote is SO true. I'm done looking back on everything; time heals all. Thank God.

I had to wake up pretty early to go to my little bro's football game. He did pretty good, and they won. I got to see my Grandma Mandy and Miss Brooke Maxwell's pretty face. hahah. I don't really have anything to do right now, I'll probably end up sleeping. There's a big party tonight, and I've got a pretty cute outfit I put together last night that I get to wear tonight! I probably won't get home until really late, that's why I'm doing this now. I am bummed about not getting to watch the Carolina game, but I'll keep up with it somehow! I love college football. ..obviously.

I've had the beat of this song stuck in my head all day for some reason.
Get in my head.


"Don't fear failure so much you refuse to try new things, the saddest summary of life contains three descriptions, could have, might have, and should have."

"raise your glass"

I feel like it's Saturday because I got to sleep in until like 10 something and didn't go to school. -which was GREAT. Then I bummed around for a good while watching every episode of 'The Event' to date. Then me and Lindsey went to Walmart and Sonic, gosh- it's so nice to be able to have driving freedoms. haa. Then they Ayers, Lisa, Chase, and Lauren came over. All of them went to Screamacres, while me, mom, and emma went shopping. I got a pretty cute outfit for tomorrow, so that's exciting. We saw Kayla and Mrs. Terri, shopping of course. haa. Then we all came back and met up with the crew at San Jose's while they shared all their Screamacres stories. I drove home, and now i'm here.. I'm finished with all the episodes of 'The Event' now, and I'm truly addicted. My brother has a game at the crack of dawn tomorrow it seems... so no sleep for me, hizzah! Oh well, I had a good day. No complaints, :b

-This might be cheesy, but it does have a lot of good meaning behind it.
"It's not always what you wear... it's how you wear it; confidence is the best accessory."

"you could of told me to run a lap around the world."

School was good, we won against blythewood, and i got to see paige! so yeah- it was a pretty fabulous day. apparently all of lugoff-elgin is going to the fair tomorrow, so i'm debating if i should go to school or not. i don't want my report card, haa. on the upside- volleyball is ovaaa'! heck yes. p90x next week, hizzah! i might add more later, i just need to go take a shower and make plans...

i REALLY just want to go and watch the notebook, haa.

"I wanna' dance with somebody."

I'm really glad that i've been keeping up with blog, i almost didn't tonight though. I've had a butt-load of work to do, but for some reason i'm in a pretty amazing mood! I've probably been listening to music and doing journals for mrs. white for about the past 3 hours easily. I've had a complete 80's, 90's jam sesh. I'm not going to write a lot because I've still got like 5 people to define, but yeah.

LAST GAME TOMORROW! :D
senior night too, i love my senior babiessss!


Give this a listen! [:

"Be Brave. Even if you're not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference."

I had a pretty positive day again, thank god.
First block- We had this salon thing, and I racked up on speaking pointssss!
Second block- We reviewed again, but that's good, because I can always use extra review. I also got to work with Hunter which is always fun. hahaha
Third block- looked over D1 stuff, attempted to find inspiration fro D2. haa...
Fourth block- Wasted about half of the class with Kayla and Ben running around Riches' second room just to photoshop a picture. took a pop quiz, did pretty great!
After school- Ate subs via miss kayla cook's mommy. (: watched the volleyball team harass Tripp from across the parking lot, haa. Then I saw Kylie after like a billion years! Then we left for our last away game, HIZZAH. I'm going to miss bus rides, that's about it. We beat Irmo- enough said... Then went to Chick-fil-a with Daddy and Grandma Mandy. I miss her being a big part of everything; seeing her at two of my games in the past 2 weeks has been really great.
Currently- I have Pandora playing of course, texting of course, blogging obviously, and about to study for art of course.

This is the story of my day, the end. (: <3

"time won't ever steal my soul."

"And we're not broken
So please come home
And if the world has worn you down
And I'll be waiting
So please come home."

Today was a pretty good day considering it was Monday. First block went by fast, and second was pretty productive. We got D2 assignments for yearbook! :D ..now i just need to find inspiration. Kayley Miles has driven me to start taking advantage of my agenda, that's my goal for the rest of the semester. hahah. Fourth Block was nothing new, I did start crying in there, but I had Joey, Logan, and John there to make things better again. <33
Now i'm just listening to Pandora, texting, and studying. ..like always! Game at Irmo tomorrow, LAST ONE! :D I hope I can play club this year, it'll be so much better then school this year, haa. Oh well. My lyrics are from a goo goo dolls song, no real specific meaning. i got it off pandora, so take it as you will.


"I won't let them break you down
And I won't hear the empty sounds
I'm hopelessly pretending that I know the answer
Angels light the neon fires that burn so cold through your desires
And all you are is all I need to know"

"Don't lose your faith, it's not so cold, it's not too late."

I don't have a whole lot to say on today. I slept till like 11:15ish, ate lunch, did yardwork, missed clay's party thing :( , so i slept, then ate dinner, then slept again, and now I'm here- laying in my bed- getting nervous for the week ahead. I get nervous so easy, but this week has major potential. Haa- school is a half day on Friday and P-roc's already told us if we can afford an absense then skip, and art would be my only main class, psh- i know i won't be the only one who skips that. I wish my parents could somehow read this, because i've already given up on this nine weeks. I reeeeally want to come out okay, but next nine weeks i'm ending off my semester with all a's. (: I can feel it. Football plays Thursday, so I have a free Friday this week and then Saturday is Jessica and Whitley's party. So like I said, this week has potential and I'm just ready for Friday.




Click thissss!

crash into me

My day started pretty early. Little brother had a game, they won. ...hizzah. today was pretty bum-ish actually. I cleaned up my room, spent some time at the neighbours with their youth group, watched clemson beat a super amazing team- sike, it was maryland, and i'm now watching my boysssss do their thing. i guess i don't have a whole lot to say today, sorry. haa

just thought i'd have a little throw back picture, [;

"Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok"

Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times.

today was a complete roller coaster. in the eight hours i've been at school i've been; scared, nervous, anxious, pissed, excited, sad, and stressed. it's crazy... i go there for an education. who could've guessed?! This year has been so repetitive it seems; school, drama, school, volleyball, school, weekend- repeat. I need change, positive change. i need proof that i'm not making mistake after mistake after mistake. i'm not sure if i even have plans for this weekend yet. so yeah- i need plans. well, i might add more later. and


ps- Lindsey Marshall got her license. scooooore!

pps- happy 17th birthday aaron handy!

"and she just wanna' shake, shake, shake, shake."

Jesse McCartney has truly helped me get through these two projects. I really didn't think I could pull it all off, but I'm beyond glad I did. haa, I'm in that "be nice to everyone" mood. I still have to study for Algebra and I hear Jersey Shore, but I know if I watch it then in no way will I ever accomplish studying. I actually enjoyed today, even though it was stressful. Every day is stressful now, and I don't want to let that hold me back and force me to post yet another dull blog. On a mixed emotion note- Coach Morris did make it official today that she wasn't going to do AOVC this year, which is sad to be honest. I've seen what an amazing thing it's done to Lugoff-Elgin Volleyball and as much as I truly want this season to be over, I love club volleyball and it helps more than anything. I also wanted to coach a little girl's group, so much for that. But she has good reasons, and I can't blame her. Like my mom said, she's a mother before a coach. As of right now all I can honestly say is I'll do P90X with softball and maybe go to a Magnum meeting, but I can't make any promises on what I'll be doing when December rolls around. I really hope I make all of the right decisions.

"It was my turn to decide, I knew this was our time. No one
else will have me like you do, No one else will have me, only you."
-Jimmy Eat World

"Remind me that we'll always have each other when everything else is gone."

I could've had an amazing day today, but I just couldn't let myself do that for some reason. my head's hurting like mess from volleyball tdoay and my back is constantly reminding me i sat on my butt and took that pre-act test for like 3 hours today. I don't know how i'm going to manage to work in everything i need to before friday and with volleyball tomorrow. (ugh) i really haven't decided much on playing or coaching yet. it's-um.. complicated? on the upside, see those AMAZING lyrics in my title, yeah- that's from a song i had completely forgotten about; dig- incubus. haa- and apparently people do read this thing though and i appreciate it!




but,

happy birthday lindsey nicole marshall! i love youuuuu!

"we live in a beautiful world. don't panic."

Today wasn't a normal day and I have a feeling it's just going to be one of those weeks. I feel like I have so much to do, and i'm falling behind in everything. Yearbook was crazy stressful today; one deadline down, way too many more to go.... I pray i'm doing alright in school, I wish I could make up a believable excuse, but in all honesty my teachers do not care whether I pass or fail, so they don't make an effort to go beyond their standards. but whatever. I'm not too excited about having to take this plan test tomorrow for the act, but it does get me out of mrs. white's, so yeah. hopefully it'll get me out of algebra two as well, it took 8 weeks, but that class is finally getting hard. i knew it would come. So much for a 98. Well, i have a deadline one essay to finish, and volleyball clothes to wash. ..oh yeah- jv won, varsity lost. 3 practices and 3 games left. God, it can't come any faster.


"In general, lines are there for a reason : for security, for clarity. If you choose to cross the line, you pretty much do so at your own risk. So why is it, that the bigger the line, the greater the temptation to cross it?… we cant help ourselves, we see a line we want to cross it. maybe it’s the thrill of trading the familiar for the unfamiliar, a sort of personal dare. Only problem is once you’ve crossed, its almost impossible to go back."
-Grey's Anatomy

"don't let it get you down."

here's a pretty basic idea of my day;
first block- won a debate on defending King Phillip II of Spain, got a good grade. thank god.
second block- yeah, algebra...
third block- hahaha, when i think about third block today all I can think about is what Macaylee said! <3
fourth block- um, yeah- not a whole lot to say. except for the fact that mr. riches besttttt be finding all of our homework!
volleyball- was alright. nothing new. 3 more practices! YES.

...I really miss Boy Meets World!
"I opened my heart to you. I can't just stand around like a fool, waiting for you to be ready."

• I posted this about ten minutes ago, and as soon as i did things took a turn for the worse. I just wish thing would go perfect for a day. Even though I take him for granted, God is seriously the only thing I have going for me.

365. take 1.

So, yeah- home alone with my 4-year-old sister right now, watching sports center and 4 Weddings and about to work on some work for Mrs. White.

I love hearing Carolina getting all of this praise, those boys deserve it. No one knows what to do with the ranks right now, I'd LOVE to see Alabama out of the top five!
I hate Mrs. White's class with a passion, there's just nothing interesting about it. She gives us a new assignment every day and everything adds up like crazy.
I don't really have plans for today, if anything I'll probably walk down to the Carraway's. I really need to take today and play catch-up.

First post of my blog! ^^ wooh, major disappointment. i'll probably come back later and something a little better.

-35 DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY! <3

roll tide roll!

SIKE! <3

35-21!

South Carolina(19) just beat Alabama(1) <3333333

It's happening all over again.

My blog title actually has a lot of meaning this time.

First meaning- this Carolina game. Week after week, year after year; I watch every game as if i've never watched one. I try to act like Garcia can play an entire game with out being a diva. But of course, he always seems to surprise me in a new disappointing way.
Second meaning- school. I wish I could have just ONE absolutely good week at school, making good grades, not having to worry, no stress. blah.
Third meaning- well, I'm not getting into this one. But yes- it is happening all over again, hopefully this time everything will truly work out.


...So, it's Saturday afternoon about 5:45 and I feel SO unaccomplished today. I really, really, really, really want to go to a haunted house or something some time soon! (hint, hint) I don't thinkkkkk I have plans tonight, or at least not ones i'm super excited about. All of these people are "changing" for the better. I wish I could pull myself together and do that, honestly. I've lost a lot of close friends in the past year, and I miss people, but then again. There are reasons why I'm not close with as many people. I'm tired of being stabbed in the back, I don't intentionally try to bring drama. I can't help that things happen, feelings/emotions/attitudes change. As 'blah' and depressed this blog sounds, I'm actually happy and I feel like one lucky girl right now. (Plus- carolina just scored again! 28-11; hollllla'!) I have SO much work for White's class I need to make up, and I also need to study for Art at some point this week. We get report cards in about two weeks, and I would love if I didn't have to feel gut sick every minute during school. Okay- I've officially poured out every thought I have... I think. Time to go wake my sister up and wait for Zaxby's!



"You know, the right guy won't change you. He w...on't subtly pressure you. He won't tell you who you can and can't talk to about the two of you. He won't hide the fact that you're hanging out. He's not gonna tell you you're wrong for feeling... for being a girl. The right guy will show you off to... his friends. He'll take it as slow as you want. He'll only go as far as you're comfortable with. He'll take you out to places, even if it's just a fast food place or the store. He'll actually sit through your stupid girly Disney movies with you because he wants to watch them with you. The right guy will come along someday, you just gotta tough it out and wait for him. But whatever you do, don't settle. You deserve so much more. "