"she's a go"

I've had so much on my mind the past two days. It hasn't been bad. I just stress over silly stuff. Overall I'm happy though and I shouldn't complain.

Powderpuff was last night. Kait Copeland did a pretty amazing job with everything, and big shout out to Amanda Burr and Savannah Corder they pretty much kicked ass out there. Seniors had that won before it even started though, but that was expected. So no offense juniors!

I looked a straight mess today, but yeah- I had two tests that I didn't exactly "study" for so I had better things to focus on. I didn't feel like doing much and I have an entire charcoal self portrait I need to finish. >.<>

I'm definitely bumming it up tomorrow though. It's not a weekly thing for me, like, I never want to get dressed for school and I don't "dress to impress" but I honestly never just "bum out." Well hey, might as well start on hump daaaaay!

To add on to this random blog, I really really really want to go to Lights before Christmas again this year. I love it! Soooo- hint, hint! (:

Gah, my blog's aren't always this random and stupid.... I guess I just got lucky. haa

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

-Eleanor Roosevelt

Ps- I'm pretty excited about MTV bringing "Skins" on to their lineup in January. It's apparently about a bunch of teens who live in Britain and go to Junior college. They party, drink, have sex, live life, fight, breakup, fall in love, fall in lust. Sounds kinda' like high school for us American kids... Right?!

"boy you missed the boat, it just sailed away. long gone, she's not drowning in her yesterdays."

Reasons I can't get enough of Christmas:

• shopping
• no school!
• family
• friends
• sleeping in
• going to Sandhills and seeing their Christmas decorations
• Starbucks 'red cup' edition holiday coffee
• football
• dressing up
• cute scarves!
• Christmas cards
• holiday music
• LIGHTS BEFORE CHRISTMAS AT THE ZOO
• surprises
• hoodies
• Lugoff/Camden/Boykin parades!
• New Years
• New Years resolutions
• fireworks
• bringing in the new year with a kiss
• food!
• snow
• all of the christmas lights
• setting up the tree
• remembering old christmas stories
• ABC Family's "25 days of Christmas"
• all of the sales
• going up to Georgetown
• wearing boots
• church services on Christmas morning
• remembering how I use to make a plan with Meagan on Christmas Eve to sneak out and see my presents
• seeing Emma get so excited
• more shopping!

Life is always SO good this time of year. I don't know what it is, I just always get into the holiday spirit. I'm so blessed and thankful right now. My family is such a mess, I love them. My friends have really shown their true colors and been there for me especially recently. My grades and school in general is going pretty great too. If I could only fix one thing, then I honestly would not hesitate to say that life is going about as close to perfect as it'll ever get.

PS- ROLL TIDE ROLL. They definitely just had a pretty good drive and turned it into a td! 7-0! I really don't like $cam Newton.... I dislike him more than I dislike Nick Saban! :X ..I never thought I'd say that. I can't wait for Carolina to murder Auburn in EIGHT DAYS.

This is cute......

"Randomly she bites her lip, hiding the picture in her mind. Randomly she smiles, she remembers every word you said that night."

...This is so much harder then it looks.

"Its always so much easier to believe what you need than what you know"

Don't let anyone make you feel incompetent. When you look in that mirror I hope you see this strong, faithful person. What you think of yourself is more important then what anyone else could ever think. Listen to heart, but be SMART. Realize you have people who love you, and people who want to see you happy. Give second chances, just never regret your experiences. They build the person who will one day laugh at the decisions they made. Change is inevitable and the only thing you can do is try to make the best of it.

I cannot wait for college- end of story.

"You don't have to feel like a waste of space

You're original, cannot be replaced

If you only knew what the future holds

After a hurricane comes a rainbow"

"not many things we gotta' do, or places we gotta' be."

There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard, No song that I could sing But I can try for your heart, Our dreams, and they are made out of real things, Like a shoebox of photographs, With sepiatone loving, Love is the answer At least for most of the questions in my heart , Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard? It's not always easy, And sometimes life can be deceiving, I'll tell you one thing, its always better when we're together 

..Rough day, but I'll be okay. 

I'm sorry, I can't "open up."

I'm sorry, I can't "trust easily."

I'm sorry, I can't "forgive and forget."

I'm sorry, I'm "scared."

"I'll see you soon then."

There's something about the movie Dear John, and no- I'm not talking about just looking at the sexy Channing Tatum for 2+ hours...

There's so much cause and effect in that movie. I've only seen 8230492027 times now and it's like every time I watch it, I take something new from it. I think it proves a lot. The movie is based around change and time. People always look at the negative of what someone has done in their past. Rumors get started, accusations are made, and consequences are resulted. Well... I don't care about your past. I don't care who hates you. I don't care about what you regret. I care about who you are now. Who you want to become and who you want to meet. Change happens over time. It never stops and never slows down. They counteract with each other. They wouldn't be possible without each other. I'm not who I was a year ago, so the least I can do is trust someone if they tell me the same. Okay, so there's no proof of change? Trust without proof is faith. ...and I have a lot of faith, in a lot of people. I'm not too worried about that either, because in the end it's all going to work out anyways- Right?

"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."
— Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)

"the stars are fading out, my dreams are fading now."

It's only November and I'm already stressing about what classes to take next year. Someone PLEASE tell me how I am supposed to fit all of these core classes, Yearbook, Spanish, Art 2, ATEC, and Central into my schedule for the next two years?! Ugh- Even though ATEC would look so great, I think I am going to drop that and take my Spanish and History classes online. At the beginning of freshmen year last year, someone who was like a best friend told me to work my butt off all through out high school and my senior year would be the easiest thing ever. Well, he also told me he wouldn't forget me even if he'd be attending Anderson University this year.... Well, Ward Yount- where are you? I miss you.

I wish club volleyball would hurry up and get here. We don't even start till December and I can already tell I'm getting lazy and we already owe like $400, haa. The best thing about it though? It gives me a chance to get away from everything. I'm honestly kind of nervous, being on a team with a bunch of people I don't know... At least I have Lindsey, looks like we're going to have lots of bonding time this season!

I don't like my mom being gone so much now, I understand why she is doing what she's doing, but eventually it's going to effect her 4-year-old daughter. It already has. It effects me. It's hard to play mommy at night and give Emma-Claire baths, feed her, get her ready for school, put her to bed and on top of all of that doing what I have to do for school and etcetera. I'm trying, but I'm at my breaking point. My grades are good, thank god- but I can't keep doing all of this and not try to act like things aren't changing and I'm not a teenager with my own problems. Honestly right now, I want to be so selfish. I want to enjoy every ounce of my weekend, forget about school, and just go be with my boyfriend who probably thinks I neglect him because of everything that's going on. I'm SO thankful for everyone who sticks by my side; the people who watch me freak out when I make mistakes on sketches, the people who watch me stress over deadlines, the family that is always trying to be there and support me, the teammates who wouldn't let me give up volleyball, the boyfriend who does all the little things, the little sister who is my every ounce of motivation.

Time is going by so fast, I wish I could freeze it and actually enjoy it.

I long for your embrace
Every single day
To meet you in this place
And see you face to face

- Here With Me

"i'm just out to find the better part of me."

"I'm confident, but I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you."

I've come to the conclusion that no one is going to believe in you if you don't believe in yourself. If you don't believe in what you're doing, in your goals, in the prize... Then how do you expect someone else to believe it? I've been doing a lot better at putting my focus toward all the right things lately. I'm staying out of drama, and doing what's right for me. Why should that make me feel selfish? It shouldn't, but it does. My personality just doesn't fit that category. I read on another blog about reasons why you shouldn't have just one 'best' friend. .. I completely agree, I've always agreed with that. Getting hurt by a best friend is much worse then getting hurt by some boy. So why would you sit there and tell one 'best' friend every dirty, uncensored secret about yourself? Secrets are stories; over time we gain them and even forget some. If you spend a year telling one person every story then what makes it your story anymore. Some things are better left unsaid. We're all in high school, and we're all changing. We're not changing in the same ways either- we're changing to eventually better ourselves. I have a lot of stories or secrets. If I choose to tell you then there's a reason as to why I'm telling you. I'm such a cry baby and some days all it takes is thinking about a text or thinking about a certain phone call and all of a sudden I'm a different person. We all have masks. We talked about this in art today. I know I have masks; 4 different masks for 4 different classes, the one during softball, the one during volleyball, the masks I put on around my friends, the masks I put on around my boyfriend, the masks I out on for my family, for Sundays, for meeting new people, for Facebook, for this blog. It's all these different masks that make us all unique and different though. So no matter how 'best' your 'best friend' is, unless she or he literally follows your every footstep you won't have the same masks which in effect means you won't have the same personality, or make the same changes in life. I've decided I'm not going to keep posting everyday, and I'm not going to try and preach in every post about something religious. Who am I to be qualified enough to tell you how good you God is? I still need plenty of work and until then I just feel guilty for trying to act like I'm a saint.

I can say this though...

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength” (Mark 12:30).

"no more lonely, and no more night. no more secrets to hide."

I could have not asked for a more amazing weekend.

Friday night- Well Tripp and I became 'official.' Football lost, but that's okay. Lugoff had an amazing season and they proved so many people wrong, including myself. Plus, Ashley Ridge is going to get cut up next week by Northwestern!

Saturday- I got my Midlands team stuff, went to Florence with my mom and brother, met up with my papa and cousin. My papa and I saw Unstoppable (which was amaaazing!), then went on a verrry much needed shopping trip!, had Chick-fil-a, watched Carolina KILL Florida and become SEC-E champsssss!

Sunday- Well, I woke up surrounded by 16 balloons, mother made breakfast burritos! Then I watched Grown Ups with the family, went shopping with Mom, got new make-up and alla' dat good stuff. I also got surprised by Emily Benko- with a cute cake! I've gotten oven 200+ wall posts, and a whole lot of calls and texts. All of which I appreciate so, so, SO much!

I'm just sixteen, but so many people have asked me if I feel any different. Well, I want to feel different. My life is changing so much right now- I'm another year older, I've quit softball, I now play for a volleyball club I use to swear I'd never play for, I've got a boyfriend who I adore, I might be getting a job, my mom might be getting a new job, my best friend who I've lost touch with this past school year moves to ohio in sixty-one days...

Right now it seems minutes are taking days to pass, but days are passing like minutes. I want to take advantage of the time I have- focusing on relationships from family to friends to God. I take things/people for granted and I've realized that has to stop! Someone asked me tonight how old I was, they had no clue. They say I act really mature for my age and I was way to awesome to just be sixteen. But it's completely possible. Sometimes I want to just be immature, be stupid, be ignorant. I can't though, I've had to grow up. There's a little girl out there who looks up to me in every way possible. She's my entire world and every decision I make, I base around her. The thought of being a bad example to her breaks my heart. I stress out too much, I worry too much, I care too much. I'm about as far from perfect as it gets.

I know that wasn't very birthday related, but honestly. I like attention, but I don't crave it and I definitely don't crave to be the center of attention. A day dedicated to me just seems selfish..? Anyways- I'm SO thankful for everyone and anyone who helped make my birthday as amazing as it was!

A majority of my lyrics probably come from Matt Kearney if you haven't noticed. He's by far one of my favorite artists.

'Cause I would take a bullet for you
I would take a bullet for you
I would cross any line, I'd swim across the sea
I would take a bullet for you
I would take a bullet for you
I would lose it all, I'd take my fall
To show you it's for real

"Take me I'm yours, and I won't have it any other way."

Big ups to all you demon football players, y'all had a pretty incredible season. You won all the important games and proved so much to so many people. It was seasons like this that the 'Lu' will be talking about for a pretty long time. We all know Ashley Ridge has another thing coming next week against Northwestern!

Overall I had a pretty good day, even though everything took FOREVER. After school was fun as always, time with Tripp, rides and talks with Lindsey, McDonalds smoothies, then the football game. Our student section was probably the most fun thing I've been apart of this school year yet. Our boys pretty much had it up until the last minute. It was pretty sad, but hey- it happens. Lugoff had a better season then anyone predicted.

My birthday is in TWO days and a bigggg thanks to Evans for letting all of Lugoff-Elgin know tonight via the announcing system thing.

"Look in my eyes. if you think that I'll let you go... you're out of your mind."

"I've learned it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it."

I don't have a specific song for today, but anything by Switchfoot just sounds good right about now!

Well- I don't have a whole lot to say. My family is really aggravating tonight, but I had a good day. 100 on my art test- woot, woot! I started on my second d2 spread, sat through a Veteran's Day thing- which wasn't all that bad, and got to see Tripp a whole bunch! Now I'm home and writing this... (:

Oh- haa, here we go... I appreciate everyone who cares about me in some way, shape of form, like, honestly, I appreciate it so much. I have to think on my own though, I have to make my own decisions and my own mistakes. I have to pray, and I have to learn. I'll listen to anybody and if you have to tell me something there are very good chances I'll listen and take your advice. This doesn't exactly apply though if you send it anonymously through Facebook. I have respect for a lot of people and I'm careful about my decisions and listen to my head and my heart. Truth is, if I believe in something or someone- I'm going to follow through and back them up 100%. Regardless of the consequences.

"You have to find something. Something that anchors you, something that keeps you looking forward. Even on the bad days, the days when you’re tempted to look back."

-

I don't want to post about my day, I don't know why- I just don't.

Yesterday and Today were good. Some stuff happened after school today, but in the end I have a lot of respect for certain people know..

ANYWAYS!

-4 days until my birthday

-9 days until harry potter

-44 days until christmas

get excited?!

"So dim that spotlight, tell me things like I can't take my eyes off of you" -t swift

Give Me Words to Speak - Aaron Shust

First off I want to say that I love, love, love when people come up to me and tell me that they read my blog every day. It's not that I'm a good writer, I know I'm not. I'm into the whole design thing, not writing... It's just kind of neat to know that people do listen- well, read what I have to say.

Today was good, I love being organized and up to date with my classes. The highlight of my day was probably when Jim from Walsworth bought us doughnuts in yearbook, yaaaay! haha

Volleyball banquet at Camden First Baptist tonight, Midlands tryouts tomorrow.

I'm soooo ready to be playing in tournaments again. Club volleyball is my favorite thing in the world.

I honestly cannot complain about today.

“But if serving the LORD seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD.””- Joshua 24.1

^^sounds like a good deal to me.

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10:52; My mom got some really good news today after the banquet. The banquet itself wasn't that great, but I sure will miss my seniors. I can't wait for club. I also have a lot of respect for the Ham's, they're an amazing family of Christians. It seems like everything is falling into place, now if only you would hurry up.

xoxo,

cb!

"Cause baby you’re a firework come on show ‘em what you’re worth."

What If - Jason Derulo

I'm not sure what to talk about. I wish I could write about important life lessons and things to focus on and what you should be doing with your life, but I can't. Truth is I'm still learning life lessons, trying to figure out what to focus on and what I need to do with my life. I turn 16 in one week, that's crazy. Where has the time gone? I feel like just yesterday I was laying in bed with Meagan Owens talking about our crushes on the cute 6th graders and how we couldn't wait to be fifth graders, then middle schools and one day.. high schoolers! ..High school is not what it's all cracked up to be. It seems to mean everything but education. I couldn't wait to be 'grown up;' to drive, have a cell phone, have a Myspace (now Facebook), have a boyfriend, go out on my own. Now-a-days all I look forward to is graduating and moving out on my own. Gosh, there's a big difference between wanting a phone and wanting a place of your own...

I guess that's what happens. I miss being little, being innocent, being naive, getting hurt by swing sets- not boys.

I do have some good or bad news- depends on how I'm friends with you... I am officially playing SC Midlands volleyball at the Plex this year! I can already tell I'm gaining weight from getting lazy, haha. I'm REALLY excited, except I'm trying not to show just how excited I am about it. Playing Midlands means one really, really, really hard thing. I'm done with softball. I never thought it would come down to this. I use to cry to my Daddy saying I'd play both sports forever. That was before I committed myself to school volleyball, school softball, club volleyball, travel softball. It's a lot, it's expensive. I've been really selfish. My parents love seeing my brother and me involved in sports. I never thought about how much it all added up; driving to practices, games, tournaments, buying t-shirts, staying in hotels, uniforms, wages- gosh. I hope I'm making the right decision, no going back now....

OH- I'm the BEST big sister, ever! I've been talking to Blake Cooper a lot lately and tonight he told me he's now doing pitching lessons at Carolina. So guess who's talked her Daddy into getting them for her brother? This girl! John has no clue yet, I can't wait to see the look on his face.

"Open the gates, that the righteous nation may enter; the one which keeps faith." -Isaiah 26

xoxo, cb!

Tell me what you want to hear, something that were like those years, i'm sick of all the insincere. so i'm gonna give all my secrets away."

The Motions - Matthew West

-So I woke up at 6 this morning to work a yard sale after being in Sumter all last night. YAY! I was watching CNN's little morning talk show and USC is now offering a class all about the art and sociology behind Lady Gaga. Naturally you would assume that since this was a national broadcast 'USC' would be the University of Southern California, not our gamecocks... but no. THE University of South Carolina right here in Columbia is now offering a class on Lady Gaga. I went to the website- it sounds a little... unconventional. But what do you expect? It's Lady Gaga. Here's the link for all you future 'monsters.' <-- click. (:

10 Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Ten: One confession.

Oh boy, well- one confession, here we go. I wasted almost 14 months on one person. The June before my freshmen year I met somebody who was unlike anyone else. I wish I could put into words what I thought, how I felt... but I can't. It wasn't easy, it wasn't right, and it was meant to be. I was young and stupid. I know that probably sounds stupid because that was only about a year and a half ago, but it's true. I've come a long way since then. I fell for someone completely wrong, I argued with my parents, argued with my friends, his friends, everybody. I tried to stick up for what I believed in. I was doing a good job, until I found out what I believed in was wrong. I don't want to degrade this person, but we are two completely different people. I have extremely high and successful expectations between now and college. I have a plan that I want to follow through on, and this person doesn't exactly have a plan. They go by day to day and act like they have all the time in the world to get everything together. Granted we were off and on, but he messed up relationships for me my freshmen year. At one point I tried to let somebody in, and everything was beyond amazing, until that one person came back in the picture. Then I had to lie my way out of so much and hurt this one amazing guy. It killed me, but I did it. Then this July I realized I needed to put my focus on school and volleyball. I didn't need to put forth time and effort into someone my parents didn't like and who was going to college 45 minutes away. No, no, no. We argued, we fought, I ended it. ..completely. It hurt, I didn't think I was doing the right thing. But I did. Life is honestly- easier. It's great. I got focused and serious on the important things: God, Family, and Friends.

Personal enough?

"But i'm a million different people from one day to the next."

This blog is kind of going to be all about personalities...

I'm not nervous or scared today, I'm EXCITED.

I love Fridays, I love being happy, I love not stressing, I love watching Football, I love getting to be myself.

Instead of telling about what goes on in my classes, I'll tell you who I am in my classes. If that makes sense.

First Block- I'm the girl who cares, but tries not to care too much. I try to forget about this class for the other 22 hours and 30 minutes I can.

Second Block- I'm the quiet little good girl who sits at the front of the class and takes her notes. Even though I look like I understand everything, but that is SO far from true.

Third Block- I try to stay busy. I try to meet every deadline. I want to learn everything I can, and impress the editors. I'm not sure if I always do. I love being on staff though. I'll always be a journalism nerd, hahah.

Fourth Block- I'm the girl everyone jokes around with. I talk to everyone and act like I'm the worst artist in the world. I make good grades and try to understand everything. Art is the hardest class I've probably taken to date. I wish I was more artistic....

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I'll add more later, I'm just bored in Mrs. White's.

PS- FRESHMEN, we know Facebook is unblocked.

10 Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now

:D :b

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Updaaaaate! (11:49pm)

REGION CHAMPS!

Not only did our boys defeat Sumter, they beat the refs too! It was SO cold, but SO worth it. It's nights like these I love a small town, I love everyone coming out to Sumter to represent the ole' red and blue. If you think about it too hard, you'll get emotional. No matter how bad things get, we are LUCKY as a community to be as together and and as close as we are. I mean- what a great story.... First years as 4A, coming in as the underdogs losing three straight non conference games, then going in and dominating your region?! ..only us!

As you can tell today got lotssss better. Classes went by easily and fast, yay! ..and I got to see Tripp for the first time in forever. He makes everything 9392328x better, i swear.

I'm in such a great mood right now, (:

..even though i have to wake up at like 5 to work a yard sale.........

I firmly believe that any man's finest hour, the greatest fulfillment of all that he holds dear, is that moment when he has worked his heart out in a good cause and lies exhausted on the field of battle - victorious.

Vince Lombardi

"But, I believe in you so much I could die for the words that you say"

10 Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1) remembering important dates

2) hugs from behind

3) kissing my forehead, (:

Today was rainy, gloomy, and everyone felt sick. I spent my entire day being nervous for something that never happened....

On the upside, I tore up my art test! hellllller hundred! I also got a lot done in yearbook, kinda'. Second block was just sooooo long, at least first block went by fast. Yeah- I just said alla' dat backwards too... whoooooops.

Well, my brother's game is cancelled, soooo maybe I'll go to the 9th grade/jv game?! hmm...

"I have this connection with him, though he doesn't see it. It's like I turn around without a reason I can think of and he's either passing by or is standing nearby. I can pick him out of a crowd of over a hundred almost instantly sometimes. It's almost as if I can feel his presence." -My So-called Life

(this quote makes me laugh, it's cute.)

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WEEZY IS FREE! WEEZY IS FREE! WEEZY IS FREE! holllllla'!

"that love could kill the pain, truth is never vain."

I feel sick, my head hurts. I've barely eaten everything. People gave me so much shit today. Please just mind to your own business. blahhhhh.

"You always could make me laugh, you listened to my pain...you turned my nights into sunshine, when my days had often been rain."

10 Day Challenge.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1- acting like a middle schooler

2- disgusting behavior

3- no hygiene

4- acting obnoxious

-i felt like adding a little facebook survey, to kill time..

hello dear, can i have your full name?

colleen ann bradley.

type the alphabet and stop at the letter of the last person you kissed.

a, b.. ta'da'.

who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

tripp.

would you consider your parents to be strict?

yes. yes. yes.

have you ever tackled someone to the ground?

kayla carraway, haa.

what was the last thing you wore that was black?

sweatpants?

have you kissed anyone with the name starting with a j?

yes.

what happened a year ago in this month?

i turned 15.

what’s the last thing that went into your mouth?

water, the only thing i've eaten today were sour straws.

when was the last time you laughed really hard that you cried? and why?

probably yesterday at the spaghetti supper.

do you have a mirror in your room?

yep.

how about a tv?

no! ..i barely watch tv, unless it's like the news in the morning or mtv late at night.

would you hug the last person you hugged again?

yes.

can you be your complete self around the person you like?

yeah- i am.

do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

well, it wouldn't be a first, so yeah.

where is the one boy and girl you want to see the most right now?

boy- football practice. girl- at camden. :(

do you wish someone was with you right now?

mhmmmm.

told your parents you were going somewhere but went somewhere else?

yess, haa.

first place you went this morning?

to brush my teeeeeth.

what if the last person you texted told you they had feelings for you?

uh- well, i kinda' hope they do. haah

do you have clothes that are not yours?

yes, a lot. whoops.

who is the first person you would call if you needed help?

my parents, or if it was bad trouble i couldn't tell them about.. probably kayla.

who was the last person to touch your stomach besides you?

case? haa

what do you look like right now?

..a mess.

cried recently?

i want to cry right now, blaaaah.

do you find it weird that some people brush their teeth in the shower?

nah- i've done it.

will you be in a relationship 1 month from right now?

there's a pretty good chance, yes. (:

did you have a valentine for last valentines day?

let's notttt go there.

have you gotten close to anyone recently?

yeeeees.

have you ever liked someone older than you?

always, haa.

finish this sentence… the last person i kissed…

is completely cut out from my life.

name something you cannot wait for?

tomorrow after ssr, friday.

is the last person you hugged taller than you?

yeeeeep, (:

miss anyone?

yessss.

who is your last text from?

tripp.

do you tend to fall for players?

depends on who you ask.. haa.

do you think anyone has feelings for you?

yes.

do you have feelings for anyone?

yes.

when is the next time you will see any of your siblings?

in a few minutes.

do you like to hold hands?

yes! ...so cute.

do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

hey, hey- bff clay!

do you want to be single?

No, I like where I am. (:

what are you currently listening to?

Michael Buble'!

do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?

haa- sure!

what were you doing at 12 am last night?

sleeping..

what’s in your wallet?

money?

what is bothering you right now?

i don't feel good.

does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?

yes.

who’s bed were you last in?

mine.

where is the last person you kissed at this moment?

i wouldn't know.

do you hate the last guy, other than family, you had a conversation with?

heck no.