"Cause baby you’re a firework come on show ‘em what you’re worth."

What If - Jason Derulo

I'm not sure what to talk about. I wish I could write about important life lessons and things to focus on and what you should be doing with your life, but I can't. Truth is I'm still learning life lessons, trying to figure out what to focus on and what I need to do with my life. I turn 16 in one week, that's crazy. Where has the time gone? I feel like just yesterday I was laying in bed with Meagan Owens talking about our crushes on the cute 6th graders and how we couldn't wait to be fifth graders, then middle schools and one day.. high schoolers! ..High school is not what it's all cracked up to be. It seems to mean everything but education. I couldn't wait to be 'grown up;' to drive, have a cell phone, have a Myspace (now Facebook), have a boyfriend, go out on my own. Now-a-days all I look forward to is graduating and moving out on my own. Gosh, there's a big difference between wanting a phone and wanting a place of your own...

I guess that's what happens. I miss being little, being innocent, being naive, getting hurt by swing sets- not boys.

I do have some good or bad news- depends on how I'm friends with you... I am officially playing SC Midlands volleyball at the Plex this year! I can already tell I'm gaining weight from getting lazy, haha. I'm REALLY excited, except I'm trying not to show just how excited I am about it. Playing Midlands means one really, really, really hard thing. I'm done with softball. I never thought it would come down to this. I use to cry to my Daddy saying I'd play both sports forever. That was before I committed myself to school volleyball, school softball, club volleyball, travel softball. It's a lot, it's expensive. I've been really selfish. My parents love seeing my brother and me involved in sports. I never thought about how much it all added up; driving to practices, games, tournaments, buying t-shirts, staying in hotels, uniforms, wages- gosh. I hope I'm making the right decision, no going back now....

OH- I'm the BEST big sister, ever! I've been talking to Blake Cooper a lot lately and tonight he told me he's now doing pitching lessons at Carolina. So guess who's talked her Daddy into getting them for her brother? This girl! John has no clue yet, I can't wait to see the look on his face.

"Open the gates, that the righteous nation may enter; the one which keeps faith." -Isaiah 26

xoxo, cb!